Don’t Let Satan Steal Your Promise

Have you ever been trucking along in your life and you think things are going moderately well, and then BAM! something happens to wake you up out of the fog you’ve been in?

That is what happened to me folks.

I’ve been going around doing all of these things thinking that everything is just fine when it was revealed to me that I had let go of a promise that God had given me. Actually, I let it get stolen. I let it go stolen by the lie that God isn’t big enough to do that or that He doesn’t want to do something that incredible for me. It wasn’t a snatch, but a slow take away where I didn’t even notice. Then there I was sitting in a Sunday service and something that was a small little side note to the message just hit me right in the heart and I could feel the Holy Spirit whisper to me “Where did your faith go that you have let go of this promise to You. God has not forgotten His promise to you so why have you let it go?”

I was horrified! How had I let myself be of so little faith that I was convinced that God didn’t really give me this promise; that I should just be content with what He has already done;  and stop hoping for too much?!

What a clever, clever enemy we have.

Now that I look back I can see how it happened. I received a promise from God and I was soooo excited about it! I kept it in my heart because I didn’t feel it was the right time to say anything. Here is where it starts to get tricky. The first portion of my promise came true, but the second part didn’t immediately happen. Every situation that didn’t meet my expectation after that launched me further into believing that maybe this promise wasn’t even real.

At first, I would think “Hmmm.. it will happen it just isn’t the right time.” Then after a few weeks, “Maybe it will just be different than I thought.” Months go by, “I should just be happy with what part I did get and patiently wait for the rest if it is still going to come.” Further down the road, “I just didn’t hear correctly. That isn’t going to happen. There is no way possible. Why would I even think that?” And so I let go because I didn’t want it to hurt. Then BAM!, that Sunday morning I got my wake up call.

You see our enemy doesn’t want us to live in the freedom that comes from having complete trust and security that we can trust our Father. That makes us dangerous to him. He wants to create doubt and confusion so that we can’t start to live out the promises that have been given to us. I look back at how I started with just a hint of doubt that turned into confusion that progressed to unbelief. I am at fault as well. I gave the enemy the little opening he needed to begin to stir up a whole pot of doubt and lies and there I was letting go of a promise that would have the potential to change my life along with so many others as well.

I’m so thankful that we have a loving and PATIENT Father who gives us the gentle reminder and when we need it the BAM! wake up call like, “HELLO?!? What are you doing there my love? Wake up!”

So I write to you today to remember the promise He gave you. YES, He IS big enough to do it. He is gracious enough to do it. He loves you enough for it. Now you must trust Him fully and follow in obedience to Him. Don’t just sit and be the same and wait around not wondering why you haven’t seen that promise fulfilled. Rise up, put on your armor, and walk out your faith each day and follow the calling we all received the day we accepted Jesus as our Savior-to take up our cross daily and follow Him (Matthew 16:24). It is in the action of our faith that we begin to live out God’s plan for our lives and where He starts to work all things together to fulfill His promises. I will say that not all of our promises are meant to be fulfilled on this earth. So even if you don’t see it fulfilled in the way you thought, you can rest assured that some of the best promises are fulfilled in heaven.

While this post isn’t meant to be the end all be all answer to your questions on how, when, and where God will answer your promise, it is a reminder that He is there waiting. His is capable and He is willing to do wonderful things in your life no matter how much the enemy would have you believe He isn’t. Don’t let the enemy steal that hope and trust in God’s perfect plan from you. Be encouraged my friend. You are never alone. He has made you for more.

In Christ,



I am A Prodigal Come Home

“And the son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight; I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’ But the father said to his slaves, ‘Quickly bring out the best robe and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand and sandals on his feet: and bring the fattened calf, kill it, and let us eat and celebrate; for this son of mine was dead and has come to life again; he was lost and has been found.’ And they began to celebrate.”                   – Luke 15:21-24

The Prodigal Son. When I was younger, I always had a problem with this story. I was like the older brother who stayed home and was resentful of the other brother who got the party instead of what he deserved. Somewhere in my self-righteous, religious mind I had it figured out that if you were “good” enough you would have never left in the first place.

OH BOY WAS I WRONG. Foolish as well.

If I would have known that in a year or two I would be so far from God and living a life I never dreamt I could live, I would have told you,  “Never! I am BETTER than that.” Pride is a terrible thing.


I went from being involved in every single activity possible at my church and as close to God as I thought possible to being someone who never let God even cross her mind. You see, I got church hurt. BAD. What I didn’t realize at the time was that I wasn’t supposed to rely on other people to maintain my spiritual life. Instead of running to God, I ran from Him…. straight into the arms of a stupid boy and a terrible group of “friends.” Satan jumped all over this opportunity and I welcomed his trap with open arms like it was one of the greatest things to ever happen to me. I thought they “cared” about me and wanted to show me how to “loosen up” and “not be so judgmental.”

Fast forward two years and the boy is gone. So are the friends. I’m left trying to figure out how I an going to raise a baby by myself while I’m still in college.

“There goes medical school. I’ll just switch to nursing.” “All of my friends are gone. Just live in complete isolation. This is your fault anyways.” “I feel so betrayed and so empty inside. Lash out and rage against everyone that hurt you.”

Thankfully, I finished nursing school and have found a profession that I love and respect so much. The people I lashed out at cared less and I finally just stopped. I found a best friend after my son was born who is now my sweet husband and the best daddy in the whole world to both of our boys. I thought life was going the best as it could, all the while I’m still running from God. During that period of my life, I was so ashamed and embarrassed of myself that I ran further and further.

A few years later, I went to church with my mom as a favor. I felt God for the first time in 7 years. A few weeks later, I sat in the row at that same church and told God I was sorry and asked Him to please forgive me. I was much like that prodigal son when I returned home.  “I will get up and go to my father and will say to him, ‘Father I have sinned against heaven and in your sight. I am no longer worthy to be called your son” But all I could feel was the Holy Spirit wrap me up and I heard my Heavenly Father say to me, “Welcome home. How I have missed you!” And from there my whole life has completely changed.

I let go of my anger and bitterness. I am a better mother to my boys. After almost 2 years of prayers and tears, my sweet husband gave his life to Christ. My marriage was saved. My children get to grow up in a completely different household. I wish I could describe to you every moment and detail of how it happened because when I look back I can see how God weaved every part together.

In the story that Jesus tells (if you want to read all of it go to Luke 15:11-32), the father not only welcomes the son home with open arms. He showers him with love. When I came back home, I knew God had welcomed me but I felt like I didn’t deserve a place at the table. I had done too much wrong. I had broken the trust placed in me when I had been in a leadership position. I had no business being involved anywhere. I should just be thankful for the forgiveness I received and leave it at that.

I have learned, however, that’s not the God I serve. Not only did He welcome me back, He lavished His love all over me. He healed my heart and all the hurt, anger, and sorrow inside of it. He wrapped me up in His presence and fed my spirit. He also taught me a lot about my shortcomings and wrong thinking. One of the hardest lessons I had to learn was– I can’t fix it. I am just a broken sinner incapable of ever making myself good enough. can’t and never will be able to do it. But He can. MY job is to allow the Holy Spirit to work in my heart and change me from the inside and it would flow to the outside. had been doing it backwards. I tried so hard to fix my outside actions that I thought it would make my heart right. Trust me though I am still having to learn this every day.

Even after all of this, He didn’t stop. He spoke to my heart and pressed it upon me to begin to serve. I never imagined that He would allow me to be where I am today. He has brought person after person and opportunity after opportunity to serve and minister through various ways.

And that is what has led me here…writing to you in this blog. Hoping to communicate the Father’s love and the freedom that comes in following Him.

This is why I am laying it all out there and sharing my story with you. So that you can know that you are never too far from Him that He won’t welcome you back into His arms.

I am a prodigal come home. He accepted me with all my faults, bruises, and scars.

Be encouraged.

If you are feeling that yearning in your heart to return to Him, don’t put it off another day. I know its hard and scary and embarrassing. However, I can guarantee you won’t regret it.

If you’ve never shared with someone your story of all that God has done in your life—DO IT!! Your story is worth telling. You never know who it may encourage or bless.

Let’s start something together! No matter your story-if you have accepted Jesus as your savior you are a prodigal come home. Share this blog post with #iamaprodigalcomehome and share all or part of your story! Even if its just about what all has changed since becoming a Christian. Let’s be an encouragement to each other!!

In Christ,


Be Still and Know

blogThis verse has been on my heart the last week and I’ve been praying for God to show me what He would want me to share about it. You see I don’t feel “qualified” to present this to you since I have no formal “Bible training” and don’t want to get it wrong. BUT God didn’t ask me if I felt qualified enough. He just told me to share it so I’m going to be obedient and do it. You see if I waited to feel qualified or proficient enough to do something, I have a feeling I wouldn’t be doing much in life or even writing this blog post at all. I am so thankful that He uses the least to do His works! So let’s dive right in, shall we?

Psalm 46:10 is a widely known and seen verse. Most times we see it by itself and not within the context of the entire psalm. I encourage you to read ALL of it!! It has 11 verses and should not take you much time. In the beginning of the psalm, it talks about God being “our refuge and strength a very present help in time of trouble” (vs 1). From there, it paints a picture of a world in turmoil and chaos. (I feel that this is relevant for today’s world too don’t you?) Towards the end, God speaks and says, “Be still and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations. I will be exalted in the earth” (vs. 10). So what does it actually mean to be still?

Before we get started on that, can I just share some of the irony going on as I write this?? First off, I’m going to admit that I am the typical stubborn nurse when I get sick and the fact that I’m going through this MAY have a TINY SMIDGEN to do with me waiting so long to go to the doctor, but that is not really relevant to this post. SO… I got a terrible head cold last week, that turned into a nasty sinus infection and TERRIBLE bronchitis. I am now on several medications (that are thankfully working well!). Two of those include a steroid pack and albuterol inhaler. They make me the exact opposite of still, y’all. My heart is racing and my insides are constantly shaking. Its like I am in a semi-constant state of panic. Physically I feel it is impossible to be still right now. Yet, here I sit, shaky hands and all talking of how to be spiritually still. No one can tell me that God doesn’t have a sense of humor! Anyways, even though I am in this amped up state, I still have to be mom and wife and get things done. Yesterday, I was scrambling trying to get dinner ready and everything else done so my husband can leave for work that night. All of a sudden, David walks up to me and says, “Why don’t you just sit down and rest? You look pretty flustered. Don’t worry about dinner. I can get myself ready.” So I sat and it was like my heart stopped racing for the first time that day. I immediately felt the effect of just sitting and being still and not trying to control everything. It was just like being told that gave me a minute to sit, relax, and breathe for a moment. I didn’t feel responsible for fixing everything that my body wasn’t capable of at that moment. All I had to do was focus on calming myself. I wasn’t just spinning my wheels and getting no where…all the while, the person that was capable of getting everything done was getting all the necessary things accomplished with ease… Do you see where I am going here?? Are you spinning your wheels trying to fix everything in your life all the while the Father is just waiting for you to Be Still and let Him be God??

We aren’t meant to stop “the mountains slipping into the sea” or “make wars cease to the ends of the earth.” That is our Almighty Father’s job to do.  The NASB version of Psalm 46:10 says “Cease striving and know that I am God.”

CEASE. BE STILL. When and where in our daily lives and in this culture of ‘go, go ,go’ do we have the time to do that? Maybe your mountains trembling  is the mountain of demands placed on you by your family and work. Maybe your house feels like the war is right here instead of at the ends of the earth. Maybe the waters of doubt and uncertainty about your life are roaring and foaming. Maybe you have been quaked to the core of everything in you from a lost relationship or receiving a hopeless diagnosis. You’re seeking, and striving, and FIGHTING every step to make it on your own when suddenly a voice tells you to “Be still. Cease striving. Know that I am God.”

  • Know that He is the same yesterday, today, and forever (Hebrews 13:8)
  • He is your stronghold (Psalm 46:7,11)
  • He is your refuge and strength (Psalm 46:1)
  • He is your help in times of trouble. You have no need to fear. (Psalm 46: 1-2)
  • He will not be moved. He will not be changed. (Psalm 46:5)
  • He goes before you and fights for you. (Deuteronomy 1:30)
  • You have all you need in Him. (Philippians 4:19)

So today I encourage you, if you are striving on your own, to be still and know who your God is and let Him be it! Stop trying to fit Him into your mold and have Him work the way that you see fit. Step back and let Him have control. (I am the most guilty of all of these. Lord, forgive me and help me to stop trying to be a control freak because I know I can’t do it)! If you aren’t sure where to start, try a simple prayer. A “Forgive me, Lord, for trying to do your job for you. I am here and my heart is open for you to show me what I should do.” Or even “Yes, Lord. I am here. I am listening.” can open up your heart and spirit for God to begin to do a work in you. Try it everyday and see where it takes you!

Cease striving. Be still. Let Him be your refuge and strength,

In Christ,


A tale of busted pipes…

My 2018 got off to an interesting start to say the least….

Two days into the new year, I stumbled downstairs in a half-dazed, half-dehydrated state [all thanks to the stomach virus that hit me at 2 am] to try and determine the source of “that rushing sound”. A few steps into my living room, I found it.

Our pipes had burst….AGAIN.

Next ensued me yelling to wake my husband, David, up [who fell asleep getting the cranky toddler to sleep]. He rushes down stairs bewildered. I’m screaming. He’s wild haired and wild eyed. The kids are crying-the 2 year old because we woke him up with all the commotion and the 7 year old because his bubba was crying. In the midst of the chaos, I finally think clearly and scream “SHUT THE WATER OFF!” Then comes the madness of trying to pick everything up off of the floor. Let me tell you. When you have 2 small boys, a husband, and a HUGE dog combined with a not-so-big house, EVERYTHING= A TON OF STUFF. I also had the bright idea the night before [pre-stomach virus] to bring ALL the laundry downstairs and sort it in front of the washer and dryer “so that way I can get it all done.” The best of plans, eh? Yeah, that idea resulted in about 5 hours at the laundry mat and the attendant exclaiming “You still here?!?” more times than I care to count.person-looking-searching-clean.jpg

When I finally got better and could think of something other than wishing I could feel better, I started to get super overwhelmed by everything. When I start to get this way, the enemy just loves to come in and try to make me feel inadequate, less-than, and ALONE.

If you could keep your house in order, this wouldn’t even be a problem.” “You  sure do suck at this whole wife and mother thing. Don’t you see all of your friends on Facebook taking care of their families AND working? Their houses aren’t this disgusting either.” “You will never be able to get your house in order. It’s just something else you’ve failed at…” AND ON AND ON AND ON…..

Until you know what?? I recognized all of that junk for what it was- an attempt to discourage and distract me. If he could get me focused on the mess and get me hopeless, I couldn’t focus on what the Holy Spirit had been laying on my heart to do the few days before. If I could get CAUGHT UP in something else again, I couldn’t focus on preparing for what God had in store for me. Do you know what I did???

I said, “Devil you hush! Nice try, but I recognize what you were doing and it ain’t happening so you can go ahead and leave me alone in Jesus name!” [Ya’ll got to throw some attitude at him and tell him to get on somewhere…but that is for another day]

Then guess what happened? My resolve to follow through on what I felt God leading me to do became cemented on my heart. I realize that I am not the only woman with a messy house. My house does get clean for the most part, we were just still behind from the holidays. I’m not the only one and it DOES NOT MAKE ME A FAILURE [this is huge progress for me, ya’ll]. Now with that said, cleaning out the stuff over the next few days I did feel convicted to be wiser in the ways we spend our money and to recognize that we don’t need so much excess in our lives– but since it was from God it wasn’t a total beat down of my spirit and heart. It was just a genuine longing to be a better steward of the resources God has blessed us with.

How about you? Have you ever felt led by God to do something or just enjoyed an unusual closeness with Him that completely sets your soul ablaze and then… ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE IN YOUR LIFE?? You get bad news at work or a family member gets devastating news. The car breaks down. Your kids act like they have  LOST THEIR MINDS and you can only countdown the seconds to bed time for your sanity. OR the pipes burst….AGAIN….

The enemy loves to use life to get in the way of your walk with God. Does this mean every thing that goes wrong in your life is because of him? No, but he sure will use it to discourage and distract you in a heartbeat. Don’t let it happen sister. You cling to that Word and God’s presence even tighter during these times. God wants to be your steady rock during the storms of life. He doesn’t ever let go or leave. If you ask, He will give you His strength to endure. Because, He is JUST. THAT. GOOD. and because He loves you that much. Remember…even when you feel you can’t go on one more step, you are never alone. He is right there waiting for you to let Him carry you. He doesn’t even care if you’re behind a load or 2 [or 5 ;)] on the laundry.

In Christ,


P.S. I would love to hear from you! Tell me if this blessed you in anyway or feel free to share about a similar time or instance in your life!


Start the Blog

pexels-photo-835773.jpegStart the Blog…. I’ve been feeling this in my heart and my spirit for months now. I’ve tried to ignore it, but it never really went away. It kept showing its face on my Pinterest and Google search history, in my journal entries that ended up being more like a blog post, and on my new year’s resolution list. Start the blog….every message that has been screaming at me about taking the next step in my walk with God some how has ended up in the whisper in my heart to just START. THE. BLOG. So here I am, writing this blog post at 11 pm on a Saturday night while I have the worst cold in years, but my heart feels like it may burst if I don’t obey what my heavenly father has been so patiently whispering to me. “Start the blog. Tell them how much I love them. Tell them how precious they are to ME. Tell them how to get to know me so that I can do great works in their life like I have yours.” So here I am to tell you- You are SO incredibly loved by our perfect and loving God. He desires YOUR heart. He desires a relationship with YOU. He CAN move that mountain and work out the hurt in your life, you just have to let him in. I should know. Two years ago my life was a mess and I never saw the end in sight, but here I sit with a life full of more love and joy than I ever thought was possible. It is my mission to share with you the lessons He has taught me, stories of real things he has done in my life, and tips on how to grow closer to Him. We were Made for More in this life, through Christ’s love and sacrifice and the grace poured out on us. How would you like to tap into that right where you are? You don’t have to reach that point in your life where you feel “good enough” to receive all that He wants for you. It is for here and now. It is my prayer that you will join me on this new journey. I can’t wait to see where it leads us!

In Christ,